Social networking and Photo editing

Social networking websites allows me to post updates about the whats-going-on or whats-something-new in my life. Whether it's pictures, videos or blogs, you can find the latest ones in my friendster, facebook or multiply accounts.

Lately, I've been addicted with photo editing. I'm learning to use Corel, Photoshop and I have really appreciated the surge of free online photo editors.

Just sharing a few pictures which really taken quite a few extras of my free time.















I know these may look really amateurish to some but hey, at least I've started something. What really mattered when I was doing this was that I totally enjoyed it. I had fun especially that it starred the love of my life, my daughter Alix.

Traffic Woes and Corrupt Officials

The traffic in the Banilad-Talamban area is just plain terrible. Just last night, I spent an entire 30mins just sitting on the immobile jeepney. That’s too much for a punishment if these people governing our city are punishing us. And why would they do that? Haven’t we suffered enough with our monthly tax cuts, which went directly to the deep pockets of the corrupt officials? The government is full of people content of fattening their own asses in their iced and plush offices whilst the people feeding their own hungry mouths are suffering to the bones waiting for the traffic to ease up.

30 minutes stuck inside a packed jeepney filled with people nodding off their heads and yawning because they're simply tired and sleepy. Seeing the situation is such a pity. Sweats dripping from the forehead going down to the nape then to the armpit is a horrible scene to look at especially if you're wearing full office attire. This is total shit. The proposed construction of the flyover that is supposed to address the increasing flow towards the Talamban area has been delayed. Way, way, way much delayed. With the taxpayers paying the fattened asses of these officials, the masses and the taxpayers suffer from the almost flattened behind due to the increased period of sitting inside a cramped and sauna-hot like jeepneys. Who should we blame then? The contractors who likewise have fattened bottoms or the people who believes that somehow our lives will ease out. Just like the traffic, will our lives move slowly towards widened roads or will it be stuck forever in the maze of the roads?

My butt hurts, my feet is sore, already I smell something from my armpit (is it me or the guy sitting beside me, I’d like to think that its the guy), and my stomach is already churning the acid. I am tired, I am sleepy and I am hungry. This is a really bad combination. One matchstick and I’m about to flare up like a fireball. Take the superlatives out and think of it in real life and you'll get the picture

Between Dreams and Reality

Last night I dreamt of Boying, he is Alix’ dad. The setting was in a hospital. He was hospitalized for some unknown reason. I went there to visit him (I actually don’t know how I knew that he’s sick, anyway, that was in the dream) and to discuss the welfare of our daughter.

The room was gloomy. He was on the bed with dextrose attached to his left hand. His family was with him.

I started to discuss Alix’ situation and what he thinks of it and to see if he’s really interested in rearing her along with me despite of our status.

He didn’t say no nor did he say yes. He immediately stood up (despite of his condition) and started to go out of the room. He went downstairs to meet up with his current girlfriend.

His actions appalled me. Totally blown me out of proportions. I must admit that deep inside I really want the matter between us settled. I don’t want to be his girlfriend again nor be his wife. I just want him to be a father to our daughter. It’s the simplest thing to ask. I don’t mind if he’s not going to share any financial support but he’s presence would really mean a lot. Regardless of how simple the request his, it’s the hardest thing for him to do.

I guess he loves his girlfriend so much that he sacrificed his daughter over somebody whom he’s not sure if she will stay with him till his dying days. I know for sure that Alix will stay with her family. That’s how I was raised and I’m going to teach my daughter the same attitude. Families should be one of your top priorities.

I don’t love him anymore and I don’t have any intentions of having another child with him either. All I really wanted is for Alix to know who he is and experience the love of a father. It’s not that Alix lacked the love. She’s actually full of it but it would be a lot nicer if she has real father to share it with.

There’s not much difference between this dream and the reality. The dream is just an affirmation of the reality likewise the reality is just an affirmation of the dream. I don’t want to choose between the two but I guess I don’t have any other choice but to accept both reality and the dream. The dream is simply a reflection of what’s real.

Boying and I can be a family even without the paper (marriage). All we have to do is act as responsible parents to our daughter.

Some say that nothing is impossible. I just hope that our situation will prove to be a possible impossible.